Right, arse is in gear...

Argh!!! Why is this so damn hard?

I've been faffing, eating too much, generally not been on the ball with this.
My husband has been doing great with the weight loss, putting me to shame!

Today is my 'click' moment and I'm back on track- I hope permanently!

Still here, still keeping on keeping on!

Not gonna lie- it's tough going at the moment.
Had a bad week last week but getting back on track this week.

I really thought if I gave up chocolate (which I have now for over 2 months) this would be pretty plain sailing. But unfortunately I seem to find other things to over-eat with.

I'm still finding going out with friends a challenge although I do drink dieter-friendly vodka and diet coke.

Hope everybody on here has been doing better than I have! :)

Welcome on board, honey!

Super happy.
My husband decided to join me on this at the start of the week. He's got quite a few stones to lose so from a health perspective I'm really pleased he's facing up to it now and doing something about it.

He's usually home on a Sunday so we're going to weigh in together on Sundays now.
He lost 5 pounds this week. He managed this without really making too much effort. Just not overdoing the portions.

For me, I managed to lose the 2 pounds I gained last week which I didn't officially record. So I'm at the weight I was 2 weeks ago. I'm glad those 2 pounds are gone but I wanna give myself a kick up the butt a bit now. I'm glad I've got Hubster on board now for extra motivation.

Embracing 'healthy'

So, after a terrible week last week, it's a new motivated me again this week.

I will confess I did have sneaky look on the scales in the end yesterday and I had put on 2 pounds. Grr.

So again, it's a case of getting that 2 pound gain off and fingers crossed any extra would be great. I really am hoping to lose more than just the 2 pound gain- I don't want to be messing around losing/gaining the same few pounds.

I'm still ill. Hardly slept last night due to one of those irritating coughs, where every time you breathe it triggers a tickly cough.
I'm making myself include at least 2 pieces of fruit in my diet every day. I'm really, really bad at eating fruit and I don't find it particularly enjoyable. I'm hoping the more I eat it the more I will grow to like it. I'm also trying to drink more water- another thing I'm terrible at!
The weather here is so beautiful and sunny (albeit still quite cold!) at the moment so I think that helps the motivation and wanting to eat better.

This has basically been me all week. Seriously, all week.
Don't know what kicked that off considering I had a good weigh in last week but I haven't been able to snap out of it this week at all.

*Disclaimer: I have been unwell and had period this week which shouldn't be an excuse but I know that's really not helped.

I can NOT bring myself to weigh in tomorrow. I know I probably should but I'm not. I will start afresh tomorrow and keep remembering the finish line!

Weigh In

That's another 2 pounds off!

So since the New Year:

• Total loss is 9 pounds.
•  I've dropped my BMI level by 2 points (?) Do you call them points? lol, from 29 to 27.
• I'm no longer a binge eating chocoholic.

Husband- the feeder?

At the beginning of the week my darling husband bought me a packet of biscuits. Yes, BISCUITS! Which would be lovely if I wasn't trying to lose weight!

Damn temptation got the better of me and I have eaten them this week. But I've eaten the packet over the course of 5 days (rather than my old style of 5 minutes!) and shared some with the kids.

Other than that I've been pretty good so I'm still hoping for a loss on Monday. I made it clear to my Husband- ''Do not feed the animals!'' haha

I've been checking this online BMI calculator and kept putting different weights in to see what my BMI will be at different stages. I found that quite motivating, funnily enough. Made it seem real, like I could actually get there if I stick at it.

Weigh In

Woo! I lost that 2 pound gain and a further pound so 3 pounds lost this week!

This means I have reached my first goal- getting backing in the 10s stone bracket (140-153 pounds)

I went on a Primark spree (only the best. haha) I have nail varnish, a new bag and many, many new earrings including some little skull shaped ones which I love.

When I went on my recent disastrous shopping trip I saw lots of clothes with the skull design on which I wanted to buy but felt too fat and frumpy to wear. So that might be an incentive to lose some more of my weight!

Back in the zone!

Feeling really happy at the moment.
I feel in control again.
I'm sticking to my 1200 cal per day.

I'm so hoping to get those 2 pounds off that I put on last week, and ideally I would like to get a further pound off so I can reach my my first goal.

If I manage a 3 pound loss I will be back in the 10 stone bracket again (153 pounds) and I shall reward myself with new earrings. Not that exciting but I have like 1 pair of earrings at the moment. They always seem to go missing! So it will be nice to have some new ones. I was thinking of buying a really nice pair but I think maybe if I buy cheap ones I can get lots of them! Cheap earrings used to aggravate my ears but the last couple of pairs I've bought seem okay.

Ahh, losing weight and looking like Pat Butcher/Evans. What more could a girl want...?

Weigh In- time to get back on it.

I shouldn't be surprised. I have let my hair down this week and been out eating / drinking multiple times.

I gained 2 pounds. <sigh>

But I am starting this morning, ready to get at least both those pounds off again this week! Wish me luck!

Okay, roll on Monday!

Due to weather crap-ness last week, all my birthday celebrations have been postponed for this week. Which means I will be eating out/ drinking for a total of 3 times this week! I am dreading Monday morning weigh-in.

I can only hope the damage wont be too bad. I was really hoping to get down into the 10s (153 pounds or less) this week but not sure that's going to happen now.

As much as I'm enjoying all this celebrating, I will actually be relieved on Monday when I can get on with the calorie counting properly and start making a reasonable dent in the weight loss figures!

On a positive note- (as always!) I've not binged and I've not eaten chocolate (the worst binge culprit for me) so I'm still totally in to this!

Weigh In

Okay, it's been my birthday weekend, although crappy weather meant I had to cancel my plans with friends- snow and trains apparently equals cancellation!
This will be rearranged as I'm not letting this birthday go by without being celebrated!

Anyway, back to the weigh in- 1 pound off. I said at the start of this blog, I will be happy even when it's ''just'' a pound, and I stand by that. Would have been nice to get an extra pound off and get into the '10's but hopefully that will come next week.

Despite not going out with my friends this weekend, I did still eat a fair amount of rubbish, so yeah, I'm pretty happy with my pound. :)
Also, my husband and kids made me a birthday cake so I've still yet to eat plenty of it!


Mental note: the month of your 30th birthday is possibly the worst time to start a diet!

Complete clothes shopping fail!

Ugh!
I decided to venture into town with the Hubster.
Originally I planned to find a nice dress to celebrate my 30th in style. I never wear dresses so this is some serious effort for me! haha.

Now, with the predicted snowfall we're expecting (yes, I am one of those English folk who is completely soft and wimpish about a bit of snow!) I decided a dress and heels would be too cold and impractical for a night on the town (getting seriously old and practical before my time)

So instead opted to find a nice top to go with my red jeans. That way I could get away with sensible flat boots if the snow is really bad, oh dear...

So anyway, shop after shop after shop. I could not find a thing. Too tight, too short, too revealing, too long, too baggy, I'm not tall enough, I'm not slim enough, my boobs are too big, my hips are too wide....

My husband gave the obligatory ''you're not fat!'' response to it all. Bless him, but this just irritated me more. I'm surprised he had the patience to listen to my moaning.

I tried a mixture of shops, Topshop, H&M, M&S, New Look, Zara, Monsoon... I particularly like looking in the sales as I'm a bit of a Scrooge but I find, unless you're lucky, it's usually full of clothes in that awful, thin material that nobody above a size 8-10 could possibly get away with!

I just can not enjoy shopping at all when I'm not slim.

So, I came home with... nothing. Crap! I've told my husband to remind me of this shopping trip whenever I get tempted to stuff my face of an evening!

Weigh In

<sigh>

A completely deserved ''stay the same''.

After my bad day last week I never quite managed to pick things up again. I'm disappointed in myself (especially being only week 2!) but I will look at the positive and that is that I only ate between 1500-1700 each day, which, while obviously too high to lose weight on, meant I didn't gain and I haven't binged.

I'm going to be super 'on it' this week as I have my birthday celebrations coming up this weekend. It's my 30th so no way will I be calorie counting food and drink while I'm out!

First wobble!

Well I suppose it's natural and we're human- it happens.

I gave into a bit of temptation yesterday and ended the day on 1750 calories. Grrr.


My husband (usually very supportive) bought some cake when he was at the shop. I ate quite a bit of it. Then I decided to pick up 2 calorific pre-made sandwiches from the supermarket for lunch. Never do these things by half, eh?

BUT, unlike usual, that's where it ended. I decided that what I'm trying to achieve here is worth so much more than a bit of saturated fat and sugar.

I'm totally back on it today and hopefully one bad day won't affect my week's weight loss too badly.

McDonalds, you let down!

So, I decided as I'm not on a 'diet' I will continue to eat the things I like but slightly more in moderation. I'm not massively bothered by McDonalds burgers, big macs or anything but I'm quite partial to a Sausage and Egg McMuffin for breakfast (and a doughnut). Seeing as they're so calorific, I had to sacrifice having both breakfast and lunch and had it as 'brunch' instead. I was soo looking forward to it (sad) but it was RUBBISH! It was luke warm and seemed like it had probably been sat there for ages. The muffin had a sort of staleness to it. I was quite pissed off and my husband suggested I take it back to complain but I'm not very assertive in these situations so I chose to leave it. So, for the first time ever, I actually left half of a McDonalds meal uneaten.

The past 2 days I've managed 1100-1200 calories even though I still feel the temptation to drop to 1000. I hop on the scales every morning and this morning I weighed the same as my weigh-in on Monday which I know is fine- I still have until Monday to show a loss, but it was a bit disappointing. Worry that I won't lose on 1200 calories.

First Weigh In!

I've lost 5 pounds!

Really happy with that. I've never lost that much in a week before. I know that will be partly down to consuming 1000 calories per day. I honestly didn't feel like I was eating that little most of the time.


I will be eating 1200 calories from today but the ''old'' me, the impatient me, the me that wants to hurry up and get all this fat off my body wants to stick at 1000 calories and speed up the process.

<SLAPS SELF>

I must be patient this time. The weight will be more likely to stay off then.


I've got my 30th coming up in a couple of weeks and while I'm not going to stuff my face pointlessly I've no intention of calorie counting yummy meals out! You only become ''old'' once! Haha.

Day 6- keep going!

I found yesterday hard- especially the evening. Apparently Day 5 is notoriously hard when changing your eating habits for the better.
The evenings have always been my worst times for eating anyway. I've never had to worry about over-eating or binge-eating in secret as my husband always eats far too much anyway. So there's no ''shame'' in over-eating. In fact it's since meeting him 12 years ago that I started eating more than I should.

I'm trying to mostly eat soups for lunch rather than my usual sandwich. I've heard a lot of people talk of the benefits of cutting down on bread so I'm giving it a go and aiming to eat bread no more than twice a week.

I'm planning on having steak and chips for dinner tomorrow. It will be the heaviest meal I've had this week so being that it's the evening before my weigh in I hope it doesn't ruin my loss.
I'm only going to eat a small amount of steak and, for the first time ever, I will attempt to make my own chips and oven cook them with that 1 calorie cooking spray. Will see how that turns out!

Pick 'n Mix vs Pea and Ham soup

So I'm on Day 4 now.

The kids are still off school until next week so I had to take them along with me to do a supermarket shop. Just for a few bits. If you've read my previous post Binge Eating you will know I have anxiety 'issues' with going to the supermarket and because of my binge tendencies the supermarket is like paradise.

I was OK today, I think because I'm in that early stage of motivation. Give it a couple of weeks and I may find it a bit harder!


The kids wanted some pick 'n mix sweets. I LOVE pick 'n mix! I let them fill up one of those cups they all seem to use nowadays for £2!! Flipping expensive, if you ask me.
They had all my favourites- pink and white mice, strawberry milkshake bottles, cola bottles and I had to just watch! *sob*

It was such a delight to come home for lunch... until I actually ate it. I've never had Pea and Ham soup before and I tried it for lunch- never again!!! Yuck!

Oh well, a sneaky peek on the scales seems to be showing a 3lb loss so far- yay! That will keep me motivated and away from the pick 'n mix. :D

2nd day on plan...

...has been ok!

Bearing in mind, I've cut out all chocolate, crisps, fizzy drinks which usually feature HEAVILY in my diet.

I have felt hungry on a couple of occasions. But I've not experienced any bad headaches (yet)

Admittedly, I didn't quite manage all 1000 calories yesterday- I think it was more like just under 700 calories (very bad, I know)
It wasn't intentional. It's just that I didn't fancy eating a banana I had planned on and didn't need quite as much cheese as I had predicted with my dinner.

I have, however used my whole 1000 calories today! :D

Really need to work on my apathy for fruit!