Damage done...

OK, not as bad as I thought.
I'm 11 stone 6 (160 pounds)

For this week only, as a kick start, I'm going to be eating 1000 calories per day.

After that it will be 1200.

I've managed to fit some quite tasty food into even the 1000 calories so hopefully it shouldn't be too tough!

For dinner tonight I will be eating chicken breast, grilled tomatoes and a sprinkling of cheese. My family will have the same with the addition of pasta. I've even got a 10 calorie jelly for pudding. :)

This is where I think I will find it tricky. Making meals that both I and my family can enjoy. I don't want to obviously be ''on a diet'' and giving my young daughters a complex about eating.
I have to accept though there will be some meals they have that will be a bit of a no-no for me. Like when they have lasagne with masses of cheese and white sauce. I won't even be able to begin calorie-counting that!

The Time Has Come (Well, nearly...)

Well finally, I'm about to embark on this weight loss regime for The Last Time!

I'm super excited. Although it's a New Year thing I'm actually starting tomorrow.

My weigh in day will be Monday mornings so it made sense to start a day early. The last of the crap is being eaten today. Not that there's much left in the house now anyway.

I will weigh in tomorrow and report the damage here. It's going to be bad. I've eaten my weight in chocolate this Christmas so will probably be adjusting the start weight on that ticker tomorrow!

Feeling very motivated.

Goodbye chocolate

Well, these past few days I have consumed more chocolate than I could ever imagine! It's true, I'm a fully fledged chocoholic and chocolate has always been my downfall. I can take or leave anything, but chocolate.

About 10 years ago I gave up eating chocolate completely for about 6 months! Yes, I hear the gasps of my fellow chocoholics. That is amazing if you are the kind who cannot get through a day without the stuff. I remember eventually I didn't want to eat it anymore and it felt great. Goodness knows why I started eating it again. Maybe over-confidence; thinking I had 'cracked it' and I was no longer addicted and could eat it in moderation? Well, NO! It was not to be and very soon after I started eating it again, I was hooked. It's like a (slightly less serious) version of being an alcoholic. Once an addict, always an addict.



Much of the time my daily food intake has been about 50 per cent chocolate. It's ridiculous. It makes me physically feel crap. I don't sleep well, I feel lethargic. Oh yeah, and it's made me fat.

I've done it before and damn it I will do it again. I will completely give up chocolate this New Year. Forever. It may sound extreme but I don't get any true benefit from having it in my life. Time and time again I have failed at eating it in moderation. It's all or nothing with me. So, for the sake of my health, and figure, I've got to go with nothing.

Friends and food

Had a lovely get together with my friends last night at one friend's flat. These are my 2 best friends since school.

A little Christmas fest. Was great fun. She decorated her dining table with a Christmas tablecloth and crackers and cooked a lovely meal. 

A lot of our meet ups revolve around food, really. We often tend to go to this one particular friend's flat (she has no children so there's no distractions from letting our hair down!) and she'll cook a meal or we'll go to the pub involving eating out as well as drink. 



We're not really ''go shopping'' friends or ''beauty salon trips'' friends. 
We have done WeightWatchers together before though. That was always fun, trying to be ''good'' with eating when we are such a bad influence on each other!

I hope once I start trying to lose weight in January I won't become a weight loss bore. It will be a shame to have to keep saying ''no I can't eat this or that'' or ''just a tiny piece, please'' or ''no pudding for me'' but unfortunately never saying no is what's got me to this weight in the first place!

No Biggest Loser?!

I have just discovered there will be no 2013 series of The Biggest Loser UK. 

OK, OK, I know it was never on par with the American Biggest Loser show. The losses were never as astounding. The trainers were not quite as scary as Bob and Jillian. But I still loved watching. 

As I love ALL fat /fitness /weight loss related shows. Supersize vs Superskinny, Fat Families, there was a show some footballer's wife/ ex-singer, Louise Redknapp did where she aimed to get to size 0. Love them all! My husband can't stand them but I'm obsessed with them.

Apparently the viewing figures for Biggest Loser UK were down last year compared with previous years which is a shame as I thought they had their best year last year in terms of weight loss. Some of the contestants looked pretty amazing at the end.

Oh well, the new series of Biggest Loser USA will be starting soon and hopefully will get screened here soon after.

Sunday Motivation

Love this lady!

Why is a pound never enough?

I WILL NOT treat this as some kind of race this time. 
I WILL be happy if I lose a pound each week.
2 or 3 pound losses are NOT (always) realistic or to be expected after the first couple of weeks.


This is how my WeightWatchers experience used to always go (this is not recommended by WW but just my own stupid interpretation) ....

*Weigh In on Friday morning. 
*Have a great loss.
*Have a kind celebratory binge Friday night. Takeaway, chocolates... Way beyond my extra ''weeklies'' (weeklies are extra ProPoints you get to use for snacks or treats or basically however you choose)
*Not completely keep track of my eating Saturday.
*Go slightly over my points on a Sunday.
*Think ''shit!'' Monday.
*Spend from Monday until Friday morning's weigh-in living on about 500 cals a day to make up for the excess I consumed at the weekend.
*Feel very hungry and irritable.
*Weigh In on Friday morning.
*Have a great loss.

and repeat......

Such madness. I tended to lose 2 or 3 pounds a week but Monday to Friday I was utterly miserable. I really need to get some balance this time and be happy if I lose ''just'' a pound.

I looked on the WeightWatchers chat boards the other day and noticed somebody on there started mid- August at 10st 8 (148 pounds) and they now weigh 8st 12 (124 pounds). August to now really doesn't seem all that long and in fact the majority of weeks she seems to have lost 1 pound.

If I 'only' lost a pound EVERY week starting in January I would be at my goal weight at the end of the Summer. That may seem a little way off but it's better than spending another year messing around with dieting extremes and spending next Christmas at the current weight I am now (or worse heavier still).

Now, obviously I would be happier with a 2 pound loss than a 1 pound loss but I'm not going to let it become all consuming.

Here's to the slow path!